relationships

here goes...i'm about to reveal something that i'm not proud of. i feel quite vulnerable, yet i'm looking forward to a weight lifted from my shoulders.

chris and i have gotten into the rut of the busy, hectic, sport-filled life. we are so exhausted by saturday night...after a full week of work, homework with kids, practices, games, birthday parties, etc...that we have been using sunday as a "day of rest" (literally). we have not been going to church. whoa...it's embarrassing to type that.

yesterday (sunday), i felt this overwhelming "tug". so off we went to hope presbyterian, which is where we placed membership over 8 years ago. we still call it home even though we haven't been very faithful members.

i was very moved by the sermon from dr. eli morris.

he talked about relationships and how deep one's relationships are...with God, family, and friends. it made me think about my life. have i been allowing my busy schedule to smother relationships? yes, i have friends, but how many really know what's going on inside me. am i opening myself up? as eli said, "are your relationships hydroplaning? are you simply friends on the surface or are you planning to make contact and go deeper?

to all my "friends" and family, especially God, i am deeply sorry that i have shut myself out. i am planning to make a better effort to get reconnected.

ecclesiastes 4:10-12
"if one person falls, the other can reach out and help. but people who are alone when they fall are in real trouble. and on a cold night, two under the same blanket can gain warmth from each other. but how can one be warm alone? a person standing alone can be attacked and defeated, but two can stand back-to-back and conquer. three are even better, for a triple-braided cord is not easily broken."

i am asking myself these questions:
1. do i choose to walk alone or be with others?
2. do i choose to pretend or be real?
3. do i choose comfort or change?

thanks for reading this. change is not easy!